A Season of Seeking, Silence, and Serenity

It’s 2:17 am as I lie here finishing listening to my 4th YouTube sermon of the day. Besides that, my day has consisted of eating easter treats, a lot of time reading the word, a lot of time sanding trim, and quite a bit of binge watching Sonny With a Chance. Not a whole lot of talking, not a whole lot of interaction with other real life people. Some of that does have to do with my parents working while I’m snowed in home alone all day, but I have notice that today has been a representation of these past few months for me. This season of my life has been a time of seeking, silence, and serenity.

I have been more engulfed in my tattered bible than I have ever been before. I have found myself reposting encouraging videos and paragraphs with nothing to add on to them. I have subscribed to so many amazing church’s YouTube channels I’ve lost count. Sure, I’ve spent time listening to God before, but I’ve always seemed to have asked him a question first. I have always heard of “seasons of life”, but to me that meant normal life stages. Middle school comes with confusion and hormones. High school comes with growth, more confusion, and responsibilities. We are growing up and each stage of life or “season” comes with the usual expectations displayed in all the movies. But now I realize seasons of life don’t always line up to age and grade. Seasons of life could revolve around one relationship that lasts two years, or losing friends over one summer. It could be discovering Jesus in a new way, or doubting God during a crisis. This season of life has me sitting in silence- which has been hard, and very different than anything I’ve done before. It has me at a loss for words when it comes to posting on my mission Instagram account or blogging on this page. It has provided a new perspective of just wanting to keep listening to what God has to teach me through his word and through others. 

I felt like I needed to share my shift in activity, and still display my appreciation of everyone’s support through this time. And tangibly express that this season has me growing in knowledge and relationship that I believe God will utilize through me in the future when I need to speak up again. I am content in my season of life right now and I cannot wait to see what God has in store for me next. Have a blessed day, love you all.